Scared

I was once scared but I didn't care.
Felt this trembling but I'm stumbling.
Words that I speak evoke wrong emotion.
No curse word in sight, I was polite or maybe it was my daily potion?
Taught so many things about people that I don't know what to believe.
Pray to God to eliminate the fear so I can finally see.
Our governments? Never trust them and they never let us be.
My own money? Don't trust it.
That front desk worker? Probably ready to ruin my day and start something a bit.
Customer service is a joke nowadays.
What is the point of asking for help if we get hit with mean words everyday?
Call me paranoid because I really don't care.
All this evil going on as I pray, can you blame me for being scared.
I feel like I am failing when I am succeeding in most areas.
So much stress and I didn't eat. but I still have diarrhea?
All the extra money I spent just to give stuff away.
My apathy and sympathy collide as my struggles grows by day.
With villains ruling over and everyone becoming corrupted/attending rallies and fairs.
Can you really blame me? For being super cautious and scared?